I Think My Brother is Institutionalized!

I think my brother is institutionalized. He has spent most of his life in and out of prison. Beginning at the age of 15 years old, he went from Juvenile facilities to the United States Penitentiary over a two-decade span of time. During one stint he spent 12 years in prison. He came home and stayed on the street for 18 months before he was back in again. The other day I ran across a journal entry that I wrote when I saw my brother while I was in the transitional house after my own release from prison. I really thought things would be different. Boy was I wrong… Continue reading

Mentally Arrested

I have a friend who was incarcerated for 16 years. He has been home for over a decade. Last week he celebrated his 45th birthday. He partied for two weeks straight. I joked, “You are partying like you just came home.” He replied, “I’ve been home for 10 years and I’m still a lover of life…. Sometimes when I’m in the club I still have those moments when Continue reading

Now That I am Out Of Prison, When Will I Stop Feeling Caged?

It’s a new year, and I’ve been home for two years now, yet I still find myself unable to sit with myself. I still don’t go home until I know I’m exhausted and ready for bed. I still feel like an energizer bunny every time my feet hit the floor in the morning. When is it gonna end? I keep telling myself that this will change when I move into a larger space. Right now the space I’m living in is small. It’s cozy, but there’s not much space to move around. In fact, it’s one room. When I move, I plan to create an oasis in my “living room.” I want candles burning, fresh flowers permeating, soft music playing, and Continue reading